"i got hired and then doubted until i got fired"

so this is a pattern that i’m writing about because three different people have randomly mentioned it in conversation with me in the past few weeks and i’ve also experienced some parts of it myself.

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on being sensitive

eroc passed me this interview with gabor maté earlier this week and it’s SO good. i stumbled on maté when doing some trauma research earlier this year as a part of my spiritual formation work but i hadn’t dug in any deeper since then. this episode is diving me in and it’s great.

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pay attention to tension, resonance, decisions

at this point, i am moving a number of formal, informal, and adhoc groups, mostly focused towards social justice and building better worlds. honestly, what that means is a ton of meetings and lots of notetaking. it’s in my nature to look for efficiencies and one place i’ve been thinking about how to make improvements for a while is note taking. all of these meetings have SUCH intense notes. verbatim transcriptions of meeting notes are the default, mostly. and that’s not bad, per se, but i have been feeling my way into what actually needs to be tracked and why.

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book review: my grandmother's hands

My Grandmother's Hands: Racialized Trauma and the Mending of Our Bodies and Hearts by Resmaa Menakem

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am i dissociating or am i just far away?

the other day i was chatting at lunch (our final one because one of our trio is moving) with two friends and a really great analogy flowed about emotional availability and clouds. i won’t recite the whole convo but here’s a little briefing:

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